"He never denied that he liked me. Just -- he has to put himself first, and wants me far away from all of this, because getting too close to me puts him in danger. Which, yeah, okay! I can suck that up. But. I'm just -- fuck, yeah, I guess I'm kind of mourning what we had, and like hell I'm not doing the things that make me feel like there's a fucking reason I even exist, even if he doesn't want me to."