His voice has gone kind of hoarse, and he knots his fingers together. "I'm really bad at this, honestly? I suck at dealing with my own feelings on a good day. I -- look, I ran away from home when I was barely a teenager because my parents rejected me to the point I decided, fuck this shit, I'll go it alone. I've had a lot of kindness and -- I appreciate people! I like people. I'm not... bitter or anything, but actually... caring a lot, really trusting people, I don't do it often, because it's... hard for me to be honest with people about situations I've found myself in..."